Yahoo!

Yahoo! Messenger!!! Not very long ago i was a freak who was badly addicted to this. There was never a day when i dint log in. Too many times i was found in here for really long hours actually talking to someone on every arbit stuff ranging from statistics to the latest movie. Well.. there was never anything important to talk. Of course how can there be any if you chat for something like 3 hrs everyday. This was at its heights during my final yrs of schooling when i ought to have been concentrating on my studies, worrying about my future, preparing for my college entrance exams and every other thing that was going to change my life forever. But i just could not get out of this. It all started early in life, at least i consider it early, when i was around 13 yrs old. Thanks to cousin who got me into this!! Yes, i mean it. I am actually very thankful to him. Though this took off a lot of time i cant deny this got me some of my best friends, who stay by me no matter what. Those friends of mine who i share almost everything with, those whose presence does not make me uncomfortable, those who like every bit of me. There is never a moment when i am shy to tell them something, never when i hesitated to share so many of the "not so happy" incidents of my life. When i started talking i never realized the friendship was to last, but it did, and here i am saying they are the best i have got.

Now i see that i am not very much interested in using messenger much, at least not as much as i used. It has reduced to around once in 3 or 4 days, that too hardly for an hr or so, unless there is someone specific that i want to talk to, unless there is something to talk about. I don't think this is because i have had enough of it but because i have too many good friends to want one more. I think i am very lucky since i never got into any mess doing this. I was not all that grown up when i started it but still i never ended up getting into trouble and ruining everything. Friends living in so many places of the world, who care to check in every once in a while, who are very interested in my well being, people who are my mentors both in my personal and professional life, i am really lucky!!
Messenger has been a great in so many other ways too. I have got quite many friends, those whom i see every now and then, and more unbelievably, some of my classmates whom i meet everyday, who hardly talk to me in person, just enjoy chatting with me in yahoo. I still cant make out why it is so but may be its because they cant bring themselves to reveal so many things that seems very much easier when you type it out. It does happen with me so many times. Typing seems to be an easier option than actually having got to tell it straight on the face. Whatever the reason be, i really like doing it, i enjoy every moment of it and it makes me really happy.

On the whole, Yahoo! Messenger has been a very integral part of my life. It has given me many of the best friendships i have now, be it someone living in US or Finland or China or those who are right near me in my college . These are people who are there with me to stay and i am very thankful to everyone of them and for everything they have done to me.. for me. I think this post would more appropriately be a tribute to all these friends of mine.

dreamz unlimited

So many times we wish our fantasies would come true. ( of course thats what a fantasy is.. something you enjoy thinking about but unlikely to happen!! ) We earnestly wish our dreams could come true, things will happen the way we think, people will talk the way we want them to. But it never does happen that way. Never. People always say the wrong stuff, things always take an unexpected turn to the worse. It is the same every time. You go about it with high hopes but it never works out. There are times when being earnest helps. But those are not the fantasies which take over us, most of the time. It is always that something which can not happen however hard you try unless your lucky stars are shining real bright. You always end up dejected, with the vow you would never think of it again. Never again do you want to dream of it that left u sad. But again, in a matter of days you end up thinking of the same thing all over again. After all its your fantasy, its your dream, its what you wanted. We just cant take it the otherwise. What makes the difference is how we go about it. Most of us end up hurting ourselves again. We are not able to come to terms with reality. We just don't realize there is so much more around us, which are much better than what we dream of. All that we have to do is understand the importance of it and learn to enjoy it, live with it, for it is better than a dream and its right there, for us!!! We had just blocked ourselves from appreciating it. World would be a better place to live in if can sense all that is in store for us, and savor it, than worrying about the unfulfilled dreams. Man!!! its dream not life.. of course the probability of it happening in next to naught!!

life in a metro

Well.. I seem to be in this great mood today. I want to write again. I know its so arbit. 9 months of nothing and suddenly i want to do it for the 2nd time today. I don't know what to write about even. Ok.. if anything deserves a post it is my life in Pune. This is one more topic which cant end soon. so.. just the beginning of it...

The first thing i should mention before i start is i have never been out of this town long enough to know what other bigger places feel like. Yes.. I did stay in banglore for some 15 days. But that was in my aunt's place and all that i did was work and sleep. Never went out.. not even once.. ( may be i should say it again here.. with quotes in bold letters.. i was in b'lore) I have never been to a shopping mall, a multiplex and never to cafe, pizza hut, and so many other places which if i mention in my college would be deemed a villager. Ok... now u get a bit of an idea of what i must have been.. before i went to Pune. My journey to Pune starts.. my dad came with me, to settle me down and all that. You see, this was my first time out of home and i knew no one in the place. Yes, dad did have a few contacts there though not close enough for me to stay there for 2 months. Oh.. i forgot to mention why i was going to there. It was for a project and the duration was a minimum of two months. ( I am not talking about it here for even without any of it my exp in pune is going to be too long). Let me cut out all that part about searching for the best accommodation. We just finally settled down on the place after nearly 4 days of search. There was a Thambi ( my college slang for the people belonging to Tamilnadu) family staying on the ground floor and they had rented the 1st floor to 3 girls, software enginners. It was decided that i would stay with those girls for the 2 months. I think their 1st reaction would have been to put up with a little monster which would invade into their privacy for the next 2 months ( It changed quite soon.. all that would come in later) The first thing i got to know of them.. One was a Bong (Bengali), another a Punjabi and the 3rd one a Marathi. Now i just have to tell you this.. i know very little Hindi and i am horrible at conversing in the language. So the only way i had to talk with them was in English. The differences did not end here, there is so much more. This is just the start of problems too. I had to wash, clean, cook and do so many domestic chores, which i am not used to, apart from the official works and i had to cycle down to the company which was some 4 Km away.

Hmmm.. Guess this was boring enough. Let me get back to this some other time. Thanks for being so patient with all my blabber.